the flipnose gal.

I have been back in Redlands for almost a week now. Sad to say, I also ate rice at least twice a day since I’ve been back. I never ate rice when I was in the OC…more so because I was too lazy to cook it. We were at Adrienne’s surprise party last week and my aunt told me how I need to cut my hair because it looked all dry and split end….then my Mom followed up by telling me I need to go to the gym because I gained back all the weight I lost. Sigh…so with the pre-turkey bowl coming up…I figured it’s time.

We were talking about health insurance at the party and I told Adrienne how I can’t have health insurance right now because my premiums are so high because I have a pre-existing condition. I have POSC (pretty much means I’m at a higher risk of getting cysts on my ovaries) so most insurance companies won’t cover me unless a) I get rid of my ovaries or b) I pay an insane monthly premium.

Anyways—Adrienne mentioned that one of the characteristics of PCOS if not treated is obesity and acne skin. I had totally forgotten about that. I’ve been off my medicines for POSC for over 8 months….and I’ve been complaining how it seems like I get one pimple after another these days (I always had clear skin when I was on my medicine). However, the medicine made me crazy unstable/emotional….so I’m glad I’m off it. But the mix of that + eating horribly leaves me feeling blah about my appearance (more so because people have been making comments about it).

I think if/when I ever get health insurance again…I want to be in semi good shape and eating right so they can do blood work and see how much better my POSC becomes with just diet/exercise. If it’s the same..maybe I’ll have them put me on different meds (ones that don’t make me psycho). I know I just lost motivation to care about my appearance and weight after the whole office and other things…but it’s time to get back in shape.

The gym is going to kick my butt.