RIP Mitzi - We Love you!

I woke up early to go to the gym today to work off the anxiety I was feeling because I knew that today was the day that I had to go take Mitzi to be put to sleep. Mitzi is the family dog of over 13 years and she’s been blind and deaf for awhile now. I think the whole family knew it was time for her to go, but it definitely doesn’t make anything easier.

Dad drove me there and waited in the car. Mitzi was crying and I know that her eyes were bothering her. In a weird way..I wanted her to cry and show me her discomfort as we drove…so it would make me feel like we were doing the right thing. I know her eyes bothered her and her ears were getting worse. Her hair was falling out in patches and she had bad rashes all over. She also had a hard time breathing. I didn’t cry watching Marley & Me, but it sure is different in real life. They led Mitzi and me in the back room and gave her a tranquilizer to let her relax….gave me a few minutes with her (I bawled like a baby). The guy let me hold her while they gave her the shot that stopped her heart. She didn’t feel any pain and now she finally gets to rest. Mitzi was part of our family. She outlived her 2 liters and lived a happy life. She will be missed.

After we left—-my dad drove to the Blessings Center here in Redlands. We spent the next 2 and half hours feeding the homeless and I helped in the clothing section helping women find clothes to wear and bagging their stuff. There were soooo many people there. It helped get my mind off what happened this morning as well as the billion other things I’m trying to deal with right now.

I might be at a crossroads in life where it’s stressful and I’m tired of constantly having to stay positive about my situation…..but I know there are people facing much harder times than me. I’ve been feeling very angry and bitter this week, but the Blessings Center was a reminder of how grateful I should be for what I have.

I already made a friend with an old Russian grandma that volunteers there. Before she left she told me how great it was to have a young person helping her because shes too old to bend her knees to pick up the fallen hangers. She also told me I seemed to be a professional at bagging clothes. Who knows…maybe my future is in retail ;)

Time to get lost in a book for awhile.